verse 1:

(jordan)
forging a fortress of armor to hide in
im blinded behind a shield, scared of the violence
i promised you love, i can’t conquer this debt
seek to retreat, is there honor in death?

off the harbor i leapt
to swim though ripples of memories you left
i will swim to the depths

thread of silk, tightly twinned around my throat
im laughing with friends even though mine are ghosts
craft my own system, or enslave to others
pessimistic like i been made to suffer

instead we build walls and draw lines in the sand
holding and closing doors instead of hands
shriek of the hinges, reap with a vengeance
weaponizing words, and keep screaming when i am dented

i think of you in all of my songs that i will resent
and i know you’re the only one who knows what that shit meant

hook:

rendezvous when i fall down
you don’t know what i know now
i’ll be here when the ship sinks
you’ll be here when my ship sinks

bridge will break, i hope that you can swim
i prayed to god, i’ll never do again
and i don’t know if the current bends
and i don’t know where the river ends

post hook:

sinking in the sink
when i lost faith, i became afraid
i became the blade
i can’t swallow waves
and i lost my way

hook 1:

rendezvous when i fall down
you don’t know what i know now
i’ll be here when the ship sinks
you’ll be here when my ship sinks

bridge will break, i hope that you can swim
i prayed to god, i’ll never do again
and i don’t know if the current bends
and i don’t know where the river ends

verse 2:

if i don’t know where the river ends
then i’ll never find home again
i don’t know if i can make amends
i don’t know if we can make amends

assembling fragments of crumbs, and what’s left of us
spew malice from tongues, as we become dust
i clung to nature of violence
preferred over solitude but now we divided

so all that i’m left is aggression and silence
and pride that i siphon
i been made for fists and i been made for violence
you say i don’t know rage, but i been trapped inside it

you’ll identify my body when i wash ashore
the same beach, you and me had explored before
the shore we were mangled and mourned
destined to die on the beach we were born

hook:

rendezvous when i fall down
you don’t know what i know now
i’ll be here when the ship sinks
you’ll be here when my ship sinks

rendezvous when i fall down
you don’t know what i know now
i’ll be here when the ship sinks
you’ll be here when my ship sinks

bridge will break, i hope that you can swim
i prayed to god, i’ll never do again
and i don’t know if the current bends
and i don’t know where the river ends

post hook:

sinking in the sink
when i lost faith, i became afraid

outro:

if i don’t know where the river ends
then i’ll never find home again
i don’t know if i can make amends
i don’t know if we can make amends